Want to know a secret? I have really struggled with stepping out with God. The enemy of my soul wants to thwart the purposes of God for my life. Sometimes I am tempted to believe these lies. (Sigh.) Sometimes I am tempted to help God out and walk in my own strength. Of course, I fail, and the accuser is there ready to condemn. (Big Sigh.) Nevertheless, I know who my Lord is and that He is for me! (Praise God! He is good.)
A few weeks ago I attended the Dunamis International Fellowship. One morning during that conference, the Lord spoke to me using the words to a secular song. I kept hearing I KNOW, I HAVE TO GO AWAY.
I knew I had heard this song before; so I looked up those words. I found it was from the song FATHER AND SON by Cat Stevens. The Father was telling the son not to go, to just settle down, and be happy living a normal. The son felt that his dad ordered him to listen and do what he said. The words of this song banters back and forth between father and son with this same old story. But the son knew… he had to go, to get away and follow his heart. And so, he left his dad!
While I have felt called to GO for years now, something didn’t seem right. That father wanted the son to follow the status quo. It seemed like the Old Covenant of the law, not the New Covenant of grace. There was division, no freedom to express oneself as a unique person. Yet, it seemed like this was the Lord singing over me.
I thought, “Really God? What are you saying here? I know YOU don’t control or manipulate. YOU allow free choice. YOU created me and know everything about me. YOU know my heart, my passions and YOU want me to live abundantly. YOU desire purpose and destiny for my life.
At first, I didn’t understand but I prayed it through.
Then, a suddenly of the Holy Spirit occurred! He gave me a revelation of His understanding. My God wants me to go away from the controlling manipulating voice of the enemy who orders me to listen. He desires me to stop letting what people say influence me and leave the world behind. Contrary to the song, it is time to make a change. It’s time to GO.
Next, the Lord led me to this passage in Exodus 33:
13 Now therefore, I pray, if I have found grace in Your sight, show me now Your way, that I may know You and that I may find grace in Your sight. And consider that this nation is Your people.”
14 And He said, “My Presence will go with you, and I will give you rest.”
15 Then he said to Him, “If Your Presence does not go with us, do not bring us up from here. 16 For how then will it be known that Your people and I have found grace in Your sight, except You go with us? So we shall be separate, Your people and I, from all the people who are upon the face of the earth.”
17 So the Lord said to Moses, “I will also do this thing that you have spoken; for you have found grace in My sight, and I know you by name.”
Remember when He told me to rest last year? (Click to read about my Season of Rest and how to Rest like a Baby.) Well, I feel God has finally given me His understanding. I am not to stay resting. I will not run away from my father, but GO WITH HIM.
And when I GO WITH GOD, He will give me rest. I will not be doing this work; He will be doing it through me. Today, I pray that God will lead me into His promises for my life, the destiny and purpose that He has for me.
Finally, I have my word for 2018. It is “GO!” Go into His promised Land! I am planning to go to Tizimin, Mexico again, and hope to join my friends Lindy and Danny Bravo of WheresoEver Ministries on a mission trip to Africa. As long as He comes with me, I will go whenever and wherever His says.
How about you? Where are you going with God this year?