It was a day of discovery. Not a happy finding, but a moment of dilemma. As I was taking my shower, I discovered a little growth on a private body part. “Oh no! What is that?” I thought. I must finish packing and get ready for my trip to the Community of the Cross. I was about to attend another Dunamis conference on the “Healing Ministry of Jesus”. But should I change my plans?
Relentlessly the enemy bombarded my mind with WHAT IF questions trying to steal my peace.
“Is this a tumor?”
“What if it’s cancer?
“I must have a doctor’s appointment right away.
Should I cancel my trip? “
“Oh God!! What should I do?
So I prayed my little petition, “Dear Jesus, would you please heal me? Please take care of my dilemma. Amen.” And on my way I went. But I have to tell you – I questioned myself and my faith. I even secretly peeked a couple times hoping for a disappearing act.
Finally an opportunity arose for prayer from a lovely couple from South Carolina.
Before we prayed, the gentleman questioned me,
“Barbara, do you believe Jesus has the power to heal you?
Do you have faith to believe?“
Hmm, I thought…..
So often people say “I know God can heal me, but will He?”
Hmm, I thought again….
And my response was, “ABSOLUTELY! I CHOOSE TO BELIEVE”.
So we prayed in agreement. Matthew 18:19: “Again I say to you that
if two of you agree on earth concerning anything that they ask,
it will be done for them by My Father in heaven.”
The Lord reminded me of the things I learned when my husband Jim and I were walking through infertility:
1. There is power in the prayer of agreement in Jesus’ name.
Several doctors told us we were not going to have a child, but Jim and I agreed in His name that – we would! Against those odds and bad reports, we did.
2. Don’t give up unless Jesus says to.
I suppose I’m rather strong willed and even dogmatic; however, I won’t stop petitioning my request to God unless He personally says – it’s not for me. (God can always correct my “asking amiss”; therefore, I prefer to stay the course and persevere until He gives me an answer.)
So as we quietly prayed, I heard the Lord softly speak,
“IT’S GONE. IT’s GOne. IT’S gone. it’s gone. it’s . .”
Wow! I got this powerful sensation that it was gone.
But when I checked, it wasn’t gone. Even when I returned home in good spirits, it still wasn’t gone.
Was I hearing wrong? Did I miss God?
So I again asked Jesus, “Lord, I thought you said it was gone? What should I do?”
I sensed Him speak to my spirit, “Keep believing and don’t give up.”
“OK, Lord, I trust You.”
“OK, Lord, it’s in Your hands. “
“OK, Lord, I’ll keep doing what You ask of me.”
“OK, Lord, I surrender.”
“And Lord, thanks that I BELONG TO YOU. “
“Thanks Lord for loving me too.”
P.S. I hate waiting! Sorry, but you’ll have to wait too to find out what happened next…..
Those who wait on the LORD
Shall renew their strength;
They shall mount up with wings like eagles,
They shall run and not be weary,
They shall walk and not faint.